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2010-05-29T20:50:00.002+08:00

in genting now...

This lyrics of this song keeps ringing in my mind: "There's a reason why I bring You this simple offering.."

It led me to ponder, yes God, there is a reason why I offer, there is a reason why I sing..simply because You are God. My Lord, my Friend, my Saviour, my Lover. That is reason enough..because of who You are. I worship You.

I was reading this book, History Maker. It reached touched me in the sense, that it taught me perseverence, how not to give up, even though sometimes my prayers may seem unanswered. But God will not fail. The promises that He promised You, He will bring it to come to pass.

Look at this,
"Our (Dutch and Will's) God is a mind-stretching, paradigm-shifting, life-altering God! Is yours?"

"if the slave master heard them praying, he beat them; but they prayed anyway."

2010-02-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

Qiqi's MAD SCIENTIST.
He works for me.:P

ORDINARY MEN TURNED EXTRAORDINARY

2010-02-15T08:43:00.000+08:00

The twelve disciples/apostles were ordinary men whom God used in an extraordinary manner. Among the twelve were fishermen, a tax collector, and a revolutionary. The Gospels record the constant failings, struggles, and doubts of these twelve men who followed Jesus Christ. After witnessing Jesus' resurrection and ascension into heaven, the Holy Spirit transformed the disciples/apostles into powerful men of God who turned the world upside down (Acts 17:6). What was the change? The twelve apostles/disciples had “been with Jesus” (Acts 4:13). May the same be said of us!

2010-02-13T20:23:00.001+08:00

THANKS PEEPS!

2010-02-09T21:01:00.002+08:00

FATIGUE SETS IN. BATTERY LIFE IS LOW..BEEP..BEEP..BEEP*
Blogger is so much faster than Facebook. Almost everyone has a Facebook account.
Rise of New Media.

FRIENDS
add a special element
to my life.
They are those
who Brightens up my life
they add joy
fun

*alright, shall complete this poem next time.

2010-02-09T18:44:00.003+08:00

Well, I was just looking through my collection of cards and gifts from people. And "WOW", these people are great, really wonderful friends, who cared for me, who bothered to remember my birthday, and gave my gifts on Christmas, and Friendship Day. One thing that particularly caught my eye was the handmade miniature book given to me by Audrey. She really took a lot of effort into making it. I'm so amazed that she actually took the time and effort to make this for me. It was an inexpensive item, yet it is priceless, it can't be bought elsewhere. She's really wonderful. Zhi'en's cards caught my eye too, she gave me a note for both this year and the past year friendship day, although I didn't give her anything for both friendship days. The fact that she bothered to make this for all of us, really touched me. She really has the heart lor.

REALLY THANKFUL TO ALL MY FRIENDS WHO HAD MADE A DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE, BY SPENDING QUALITY TIME WITH ME AND GIVING MY GIFTS.

2010-02-07T15:44:00.003+08:00

So many things are demanding my attention.
They seem to be calling out, "Hey, here! I need your attention."
I really want to give full attention to all of them.

I like studying, but I do not like it when there's just too much things to study, and you don't have enough time for all of them.

GOD, FAMILY, STUDIES.

God, it's horrifying.
I am weary.
burdened.

2010-02-06T08:57:00.001+08:00

Draw me nearer
Take me further
Take me higher
Take me deeper

2010-02-06T08:48:00.002+08:00

So conscious of Your presence
wherever I go,
You are there
If I go and
hide in the mountains
You are there.

If I go down to the valley,
You are there,
How can I ever
flee
from You
O God.

Read Revelation 18: 9-24
http://www.purposequest.com/assets/pdfs/studies/rev/study37.pdf

depressed.

2010-02-05T16:17:00.002+08:00

Read: Numbers 13:26-30
They came back to Moses and Aaron and the whole Israelite community at Kadesh in the Desert of Paran. There they reported to them and showed them the fruit of the land, They gave Moses this account: "We went into the land to which you sent us, and it does flow with milk and honey! Here is its fruit. But the people who live there are fortified and very large. We even saw descendants of Anak there. The Amalekites live in the Negev; the Hittites, Jebusites and Amorites live in the hill country; and the Canaanites live near the sea and along the Jordan."

Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, "We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it."

I wanted to find a passage which a seventy plus year old man said, "give me this mountain", in the bible. I could not find it, but found this passage instead. The sentence in bold means something to me, "just go ahead and take it, we can certainly do it." Well, why is the speaker so certain here? Because God said so, He said in Chapter 13:2 that, "Send some men to explore the land of Canaan, which I am giving to the Israelites." Well, when God says that He's giving you something, you can certainly take hold of it, for He also said, "ask and you shall receive, seek and you will find".

Lord, it's depressing. But God I believe in you, you said that you will give me "it", surely I will be able to take hold of it.

I feel really stretched.
Overwhelmed.
So near yet so far.
Too many things to do,
yet so little time.

But surely, Lord, you make all things work,
I can't even imagine the things that, God,
you can do through me.

ALL-POWERFUL,
UNTAMABLE.

INDESCRIBABLE,
UNCONTAINABLE.

2009-12-11T16:13:00.011+08:00

GENTING PICS! :D
was okay-okay..
missed the church:)
but nice bonding time with fam!

And what a coincidence,
while I was away,
Jo-Anne and Jin Jer met XQ!
and gave her the love pack:)
really want to see it:D

JESUS LOVES YOU!XD

2009-11-22T21:58:00.001+08:00

GOOD HABITS! yep, i remembered all that Mr. Tan said. Hehe.:D Gonna get all As, just kidding.

Heaven On Earth?

Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. —Colossians 3:2

The Singapore developer of an extravagant condominium advertised its new project as, “Rediscover Heaven on Earth.” I suppose it meant to convey to prospective buyers that their purchase would be so luxurious that it would be like living in heaven while here on earth.

Solomon, the writer of Ecclesiastes, was an extremely wealthy man (Eccl. 1:12). He tried to find heaven on earth and had the means to live as luxuriously as he could wish (2:1-10). Yet he wasn’t satisfied. So disillusioned was he with life, he described it with just one word—“vanity” (or “meaningless”). And he repeated the word eight times in chapter two alone. As long as he looked only at life “under the sun” (2:18), he felt hollow and dissatisfied. All of his striving was ultimately futile. There would come a day when he would have to relinquish his possessions and leave them to someone else (v.18).

If you are a Christian, you can look to Christ’s promise of a heavenly home He has gone to prepare (John 14:2). That’s why Paul advised those who are enjoying what God has given: “Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth” (Col. 3:2). Don’t try to find heaven on earth. You won’t—no matter how hard you look! —C. P. Hia

Lightly hold earth’s joys so transient,
Loosely cling to things of clay,
Grasp perfections everlasting,
Where Christ dwells in heaven’s day! —Bosch

Those who have their hearts fixed on heaven will hold loosely the things of earth.

2009-11-21T11:42:00.001+08:00

No one is useless in this world who lightens the burdens of another. —Charles Dickens

I WANT TO WRITE A WORSHIP SONG!!

How to Write a Worship Song

-You may take a verse and sing it.

-Songs often have a chorus which repeats after verses. An easy format could be Chorus, verse 1, Chorus, verse 1 ,etc.

God Works In Mud

2009-11-20T10:02:00.001+08:00

God Works In Mud

The Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being. —Genesis 2:7

In a 1950s novel, there is a scene in which four village men confess their sins to one another. One of the men, Michelis, cries out, “How can God let us live on the earth? Why doesn’t He kill us to purify creation?” “Because, Michelis,” one of the men answered, “God is a potter; He works in mud.”

This is literally what the Lord did in Genesis. The sovereign Creator formed and shaped humanity by unique design. This process involved fashioning a man from the dust of the ground. The word formed in Genesis 2:7 describes the work of an artist. Like a potter, molding and fashioning mud into a pot or some other earthen vessel, so the Lord God formed humanity from clay.

God’s work with dust and mud continued by breathing into man the breath of life, changing his form into a living soul. This made man a spiritual being, with a capacity to serve and fellowship with the Lord.

After Adam and Eve sinned, God continued working in and with mud, sending His Son Jesus t o die for humanity and then regenerating those who receive Him so that we can enjoy fellowship with Him. In gratitude, let’s use our hands to do good works for His glory. —Marvin Williams

In His own image God created man,
He formed his body from the dust of earth;
But more than that, to all who are in Christ
He gives eternal life by second birth. —Hess

God is the only One who can make the dirty clean.

(extracted from ODB 18 Nov 2009)

2009-11-19T10:37:00.000+08:00

A video of my church. haha. Youth camp 2008:) Love it.

2009-11-18T19:26:00.002+08:00

yadayada..
yep, i got ADVANCED.:D
after hearing wad principal said on that day,
realised that i should really work extra hard, esp. since next year im going to PU2.

NO MORE LAST MIN WORK FOR QIQI!

and yeah, here's wad principal said,

POSITIVE ATTITUDE
EXTRA EFFORT
and one last one..(umm, cant rmb, hah)

2009-11-18T19:22:00.002+08:00

Indeed, there is none like You, Lord.
You pick me up when I fall.
I trust in You.
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JESUS LOVES YOU!
He love for you is so deep, so unconditional, so indescribable, that He is willing to die on the cross for you.

2009-11-18T19:20:00.000+08:00

2009-11-18T19:10:00.002+08:00

Today I doubted Father, I walked away from me.
But He came and found me, and held my hand as we walked home together.
Daddy always does that, He will always go the extra mile for me.
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Presentation was nice!
I liked our ppt design:)
kudos to project mates.:)
teacher remarked that i was a bit shy, looking at the screen instead of at the audience:X
I wanted to look at the audience, but i wanted to look at the screen to read out my points too. LOL
in the end, it became like that.
anyway, my points were brief, didn't feel a need to elaborate.:x 3 slides.

2009-11-18T12:15:00.002+08:00

BOO! wahahaha. Finally done finish my psycho project. Whew! wish me all the best for the presentation later.:) Really hope and pray that i can project my voice, given that i have sore throat..

Blah, blah. I'm now in school.

2009-11-01T18:29:00.002+08:00

31 October 2009!
Yesterday was my mum's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!
well, I haven do the present for her yet. But I'm sure she will like it.
We went to Jacks' place at AMK yesterday, great spread of food, but not really to my liking.
I ordered Lamb chop and Fish. Fish was nice, but lamb chop was not, wrong choice.

2009-10-20T19:26:00.003+08:00

God has been speaking to me about LOVE these days.

Now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. —1 Corinthians 13:13

“Wounded people who have been broken by suffering and sickness ask for only one thing: a heart that loves and commits itself to them, a heart full of hope for them.”

Such a love may be painful for us. But real love, the apostle Paul re minds us, “Bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things” (1 Cor. 13:7).

Perhaps I should love my brother even more.

God, help me to have real love for others, LOVE that bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things and endures all things. God, help me to have a heart for wounded people, who have been broken by suffering and sickness, a heart that loves and commits itself to them, a heart full of hope for them. God, I only ask to be able to brighten up the lives of others.

They do not truly love who do not show their love. —Shakespeare

2009-10-19T16:16:00.002+08:00

Had a very nice sms session with XQ yesterday. Haha.;D
okay, this is just so nice that I can't help but post this.

“I realized there are kids just waiting, and I could make a difference," she(Jane) said.

This really touched me. Jane was a woman who had just retired, but instead of relaxing, travel, or enjoy hobbies, she heard about a ministry to at-risk youth in a city near her home, and she knew she had to get involved.

Of this ministry opportunity, Jane said with a smile, “I could just go shopping to stay busy, but what fun would that be?”

Jane is making a difference. Perhaps she has learned a little of what Jesus meant when He said, “Whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it” (Matt. 16:25). Giving ourselves to the Lord through helping others takes self-denial, yet one day Jesus will reward that effort (v.27).

Oh, let us be faithful to Jesus,
The faith we confessed let’s renew,
And ask Him this question each morning:
“Lord, what will You have me to do?” —Pangborn

Work for the Lord—His retirement plan is out of this world.

2009-10-15T09:47:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's LOVE plan A really went on very well. A success! Anyone wants to know what LOVE plan A is? Well, to be revealed later! hehe.

2009-10-13T15:46:00.002+08:00

Yep, now to update about my Promos 2. Hehe.

Lit P1 was okay, except the landscape one, which I felt I had screwed it up. Oh wells. But still felt I did better than Promos 1.:D

Econs was okay too.

History, woah, was just writing and writing and writing. 4 essays to write, 2 was okay, last 2 was bad. Last 2 was SEA hist.

Maths was beery beery good! Really better than what I expected. Finished the paper in two hours. Last hour was just checking and checking and checking away. Crazy mad mathematician. Wakakaka. But just a little wasteful, i forgot to label the graphs. But well, overall, maths was the best Promo 2 paper for me!:D

Lit P5 was oh wells, the tess question was simple and quite straight forward, which is good. I attempted the prose, prose was okay i think, better than the test.:D

So overall, Promo 2 was quite good, eh? I think better than Promo 1. Really thank God for His grace and mercy, because I really didn't study a lot for the exams, and I didn't compromise on His things, God is great.:D

2009-10-13T15:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night was fun, fun and super fun!
wooh, played Wii at Ros' house, with Trina too.
woah, really great bonding time, Ros.
Thanks for giving us the Wii experience! Haha.
We playing Rayman Rabbids, wah the names are super cool lah, lol, got this "Armpit, Utah" game and "ladies night" and "wacchamakallit"<- not sure if it's spelt this way. Haha.
Anyways, it's just super fun! and Ros was so funny. Haha.
Never felt that fun for a very long time. So it's really great. Indescribable fun.:D

2009-10-13T15:35:00.001+08:00

Extracted from ODB, October 13, 2009

This is the wish I always wish,
The prayer I always pray:
Lord, may my life help others
It touches on the way. —Anon.

Christians are windows through which Jesus can shine.

GIVING TO OTHERS:)

2009-10-04T17:32:00.002+08:00

PERRY NOBLE'S BLOG->perrynoble.com(very nice!:D)

1 John 3:17
Whoever has this world's goods, and sees his brother in need, and shuts up his heart from him, how does the love of God abide in him?

2009-10-02T16:48:00.002+08:00

"Attempt great things for God. Expect great things from God. Dream Big!"

God, I lost it. I lost the enthusiam, I lost the passion. God, I'm sorry.
Sometimes this heart just doesn't expect great things for God.

GP and MT exam!
Both paper 1's were okay, paper 2=killer
Paper 1 for chinese, I wrote about Roselyn. haha. She doesn't know about it, but it's okay.

2009-09-18T15:17:00.002+08:00

Am G F C
You are the source of my strength when im weak
F G C G/B
You will supply all my needs
Am G F C
My Healer, Redeemer, my Saviour and King
Dm7 F G
The Lord of my everything

God I really need You.
You are my provider.
Today i got a private conversation with Mdm Cho.
She's really caring.
I had a lit test today, and after writing just two para, i gave up and slept.
was really tired.
After the test, she called me to talk to me.
She asked me whether im sick or anything..
i said no, i was just tired.
She asked why.
"probably lack of sleep?" was my reply.
She asked me whether im struggling with Lit.
Yes, i admit, my lit is really horrendous.
It was my favourite subject, and i really love lit lessons,
but it became my worst subject, getting an Ungraded grade for promo one.
I feel like im going to suffocate, i haven read finished both books, God help me.
I don't want to compromise on certain things.
I really need You, now.

Gotta buck up for lit!
can't go on like that any longer.
Thanks Mdm Cho, for waking me up.
Yes, i ought to study Lit now.

Hebrews 12: 1-3
"..let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin
that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance
the race marked out for us.
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus,
the author and perfecter of our faith,
who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame,
and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men,
so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."

THE MORE I SEEK YOU

2009-09-16T15:24:00.004+08:00

THE MORE I SEEK YOU.

intro: E  B  C#m  Asus   *played 1x around (the intro)


E               B

The more I seek you
C#m             Asus
The more I find you
E               B
The more I find you
C#m             Asus
the more I love you


E                    B
I wanna sit at your feet
                        C#m
Drink from the cup in your hand.
                        Asus                         E
Lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat
                B                         C#m
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
              Asus                     E
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming
(From Top)


play through the song 2X's  ending: E B C#m Asus 1x

*from ultimate-guitar.com

This song is the song i played during my devotion, this song really touches me..during this sunday service probably because of some problems I've faced.
If you haven't noticed, this song is my blog song.:DD

How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! 
-1 John 3:1

Adapted from Our Daily Bread- Special Racing Edition
John the disciple spoke of our heavenly Father's "lavish" love, "that we should be called children of God" (1 John 3:1). But not everyone is truly a child of God. We must first be adopted into His family. The true child of God "cannot go on sinning, because he has been born of God" (v.9)

Do you know what it means to  be "born of God"? Have you ever asked Him to become His child? -Tim Gustafson

How To Become God's Child
Come to God in childlike faith. Tell Him that you believe Jesus died to pay the penalty for your sins. Accept His forgiveness for your sins. (Romans 6:23)

2009-09-15T18:41:00.002+08:00

"Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?"
-Job 2:10 (NIV)

Chinese oral yesterday was horrendous! My conversation with the teacher was totally not fluent, and the teacher even laughed. I said one english word some more, "like". Lol.

Saw the exam schedule. Horrific. One whole week of exams, and Lit is the second paper. I haven't read finish both the two books!

Really enjoyed teaching Fatinah maths, hehe. Really glad i could help.:D (my maths is not very good)

I will plan my time properly, God.
For Your sake, i will not compromise.
By faith, O Lord.

God has really touched me during these period of "storms". God, I am really grateful for all your surprises. Indeed, through the storms, You are there, and You want to draw me nearer to Yourself. You will always, always grab hold of my hand when I'm falling, and I'm really grateful for that.:D God, I love you more than life..(and i don't want to say this just for the sake of saying this).

By the way, another oikos is coming up! this sat!
If you're free this sat, do come and join me and a group of friends to play some exciting and FUNN games.
Do keep this date free.:D

HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS

2009-09-11T11:57:00.002+08:00

Well, what i did during these holidays was really fruitful. I really studied.

You should be happy for me. :D

Short summary of what I did.:)

hopefully i can remember.

Monday

did SEA hist homework

did Korean War homework

called Jo-Anne:)

-Jo-Anne was really good in counselling me. hehe:D

Tuesday

did present for Audrey Lum.

went out to meet her to play basketball:)

had lunch with her(actually she didn't eat, only i ate.lol)

did maths assignment 7D.

searching for God's love on the internet

-found many images+ was really inspired by one webpage(other people are doing so much for God, why am i not doing so?)

Wednesday

went to school for econs lesson and lit lesson

did lit homework(Mdm sham's one)

did lit homework(one para on the mother)

read Tess

Thursday

read Tess

went to library(cell was postponed)

Friday

what im doing now..typing this post:)

2009-08-11T14:27:00.000+08:00

haizzzzzz finally decide to blog today..i really hate the microsoft office thingy...argh..wasting my time..
I just wanted to do a powerpoint to study!
wanted to study Korean War..
let me see what i can remember..
MAO ZE DONG
-china's political leader

KIM Il SUNG
-N.Korea's political leader

DWIGHT D. EISENHOWER
-general of USA i think

arghss i'm giving up i'm giving up doing my powerpoint..
byes will try to blog on the past later..

2009-07-19T21:07:00.002+08:00

YO my dear readers!
well, im gonna talk about ROMP! today.
ROMP! happened on 18 july, which was yesterday and it was FUN!(those of you who didn't go for it, well, u missed out something great)
well, anyway, i was playing the badminton competition.
when it was my turn, i was really nervous, however, still managed to win my category(women's singles). I played with esther, my friend. cool right?, playing badminton competition with ur friend:DD she was like telling me she was so nervous..then i told her i was nervous too.
think i wasted some points being nervous lol.

THOSE WHO LOVE SPORTS(XQ!) AND ADVENTURE, COMMUNITY SERVICE, WORKSHOPS..YOU ALL SHOULD JOIN WAD! CLUB. WAD! CLUB IS A YOUTH ORGANISATION WHO ORGANISES THESE THINGS, SO YOU ALL SHOULD CHECK IT OUT. WWW.WADCLUB.ORG im a member of wad! club. so if you have any questions about the club, feel free to ask me:DD

alright, another thing!
ARE YOU FREE THIS SATURDAY?
if you are, keep that date booked, cause im organising some games cum sports, if you are interested, please keep that date booked. Thanks:DD

2009-07-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

hello..i just came back from cell.
I was STUNNED when zhi'en asked me this question.."Who is your best friend in church?"
qiqi: "I have no best friend."
zhi'en: "your closest friend?"
qiqi: (spent a long time thinking...)
zhi'en: "why you need to think so long one? then top 3 la.."
qiqi: "okay top 3 easier.."
Jo-Anne suddenly became my top 3 friends in church. Lol.
actually not suddenly..is gradually.. hahas
actually i don't really say that someone is my best friend..i always say good friends..i don't want any of my friends to feel left out. lol

IN THE AFTERNOON...
had a smashing good time playing badminton with fatinah, AJ, jo-anne, jinlin, fatinah's bro, and desmond.

2009-07-09T12:31:00.003+08:00

righto! and desmond's joining us for badminton too, though he's not playing..

alright, well, i was reading ODJ..and these are some nuggets from it..
EXTRACTED FROM ODJ

-Our world(governments, social structures, economies, environment, neighborhoods, relationships) has deep painful scars.

-And the only remedy for this rack and ruin is a deep healing. WE NEED A SAVIOR.

-we are heading toward a joyful conclusion where "no longer will there be a curse upon anything" and where "there will be no night."(Rev 22:3,5)

-we are moving toward a day- can you inagine it?- when God will "heal the nations", every single one.(v2)

-John 11:4
->"...Jesus said, "This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God's glory so that God's Son may be glorified through it." "

-John 25-26
-> Jesus said to her, " I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?"

-John 11:40
-> Then Jesus said," Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?"

-Romans 8: 24-25
-> For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

-WHERE DOES YOUR HEART NEED TO BE HEALED?
-WHERE DO YOU NEED TO TRUST GOD FOR THE HEALING OF YOUR WORLD?

This passage really spoke to me deeply...

2009-07-09T09:56:00.002+08:00

oops, forgot to include jinlin's joining us to play badminton today too! :DD

hmm, before i go to give out ROMP! flyers...
just want to encourage you people with this verse:

Trust in the Lord with
all your heart;
do not depend on your
own understanding.
Seek His will in all you do,
and He will show you which path to take.
~Proverbs 3:5-6

This verse really touched me..it was on the front cover of ODJ...
because our own understanding is very limited...we sometimes don't look at the big picture..
whereas God looks at the big picture..and He knows what's the best for us.

2009-07-08T20:47:00.010+08:00

woah..this is tedious work..finally settled badminton court stuff!
going to play badminton with my ROMP! teammates tomorrow, which consists of me(captain lol), fatinah(good classmate:)), jo-anne, fatinah's friend, fatinah's friend, fatinah's friend. lol don't know who they are..going to meet them tomorrow!:D

TODAY, LAST PAPER FINALLY OVER! HURRAY!
LIT PAPER 5 WAS hmm, interesting haha.
okay..so i couldn't get full marks for paper 5..and that means IM GONNA FAIL LIT!
but im quite proud of my answer for tess:DD wrote 2 pages plus. :))
however,wrote one page lesser for unseen lol.
unseen is the one..i couldn't understand the passage la!
read thro once..don't understand
read twice..okay..understand a bit
read thrice...don't understand last part! haha
how am i going to "comment critically" when i don't even understand the passage lol.

JINLIN CAME OVER TO MY HOUSE TODAY...
and she forgot to bring back her file and handphone earpiece..lol both she and I were so blur lol
actually say want play badminton one..but in the end never..
well, she went to my house to eat korean mee, and we went blog-hopping(visited XQ's blog aha, josanne's blog, huixin's blog, cassandra's blog, and some random people's blog)

And for XQ's eyes to see..
WE TOOK SOME PHOTOS! :D

we decided to lie on the ground.

jinlin snapped a pic of me while i was playing my beloved guitar. I know how to play "happy bday" song le!(well, if ur bday's coming up, i can play for u:))

bear in middle.

jinlin in sort of a jumping stance.lol.

ROLLBACK TO YESTERDAY...

I talked to ros on the phone...and she said she was very busy with projects and stuff...

and i feel really bad that she has to meet me(she's helping me with my walk with God)..

but i know that despite her busy schedule, she would still take up her time to meet me...so

"Thanks very much, ros, for always giving me your time." <--i smsed her that today.:)

we should always appreciate our core members and leaders in church, for they always take very good care of us. :D me, as member, really appreciates that. :DD selfless giving of their time. :DD

THANKS VERY MUCH JO-ANNE FOR TEACHING ME LIT ON MONDAY:))hehe, just want to appreciate u too. (although u haven't come to my blog yet)

2009-07-06T21:22:00.002+08:00

yoyo. sorry XQ, haven't take any pics yet haha. oh ya, have, church camp photos, but on facebook. yea, XQ, ur blog got write play bball what..

yeah! today went to give on street rove for ROMP! got a few contacts whom are quite keen to join, one badminton, one soccer. After that went JO-ANNE'S AUNT HOUSE! ooh, actually went her house for her to teach me lit one. (jo-anne's my church friend, she got an A for h1 lit, ooh). Then i was just studying by myself, then she went to sleep, she slept for quite long lol. Oh and her aunt was just so nice. Having seen me ate so little for lunch, ate porridge by the way, provided me with a yakult drink and a big piece of bread(considered quite big for me lol) with butter. oh, and it was nice man. And then jo-anne woke up, taught me lit for like 30 mins. After hearing her explain so much, i fell in love with lit even more lol. And talking with jo-anne is so nice. we just seem to have so much to say, from Godly stuff, to musical stuff, to lit lol. :D jo-anne, my very good friend:DD oh, and did i say we went to amk hub to shop before going her aunt's house? oh ya, she was like asking me what do i want for my bday haha. says want to buy practical things for me. oh and I remember! XQ says want to buy skirt for my bday!!!

2009-07-03T23:39:00.002+08:00

friends! come support me. I'm playing badminton for ROMP! and guess what? ROMP! is 4 days before my bday. :D registration for ROMP! closes on 5 july, this sun, so if you peeps wanna join these 4 sports, then you better hurry up! :))

well, just came back from prayer meeting today. And one of the prayers that we prayed about was hearing the voice of God and having an authentic relationship with Him. I especially think that it's very important to hear God's voice. If not, i think i'll be at a loss. It's like everyday i can hear him talking to me. And well, God, i just think you're great. :D my walk with you have been really exciting. And going to church is not just a routine.

Everyday, it's You i live for.
Everyday, i'll follow after you.
Everyday, i'll walk with You my God...

I sang this song during cell worship this week.

2009-07-02T15:19:00.004+08:00

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THIS IS ONE CARNIVAL YOU DON'T WANNA MISS!

2008-02-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

hihi everyone. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. GONG XI FA CAI. NIAN NIAN YOU YU. BU BU GAO SHENG. XUE YE JING BU.(: im at my cousin's house now. didnt gamble today..lols im such a good girl..jkjk. hmm watched the CJ7. quite funny, touching. cried a bit. :/ should go watch! ((: nothing much to blog about. yeah, angpow money i got 198. isit considered quite little? went to my grandmother's house too. sadly, my grandfather could'nt recognize me. ): because of some illness.

2007-12-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO MERRY CHRISTMAS!

went for gb christmas service on 23 at YCK chapel. very few ppl came, the seniors, melinda, jolynn and few of the sec 1s came only. sang christmas carols, and there was a skit also. but i dont like the part where there was a speech. there was dinner. it was quite fun. going to church is not so bad after all. :)

roselyn came and invited me to a christmas party in ang mo kio the next day. introduced me to her cell group members and church mates. there was a game where the children had to close their eyes and burst the balloon on top. and they had "pass the parcel". when the music stops, the last person holding the parcel had to get up and act out a phrase where the audience had to guess. there were 4 parcels. i was one of the person holding the parcel. i had to point to the christmas poster. we had to act out: "Jesus is the superhero of christmas".

christmas day. i went to harvester church. received free presents. :) the whole scene was very miraculous. you have to believe in God and accept Him as your one and only saviour. those people who were sitting on wheelchair . they can walk! God healed them.

2007-12-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

hmm...these few days...just been playing uno stacko, wordsearch, reading storybooks, and study.

Both my hamsters ran away from the cage; still trying to find them.

2007-12-07T17:06:00.000+08:00

lols. My brother has 2 blog. He created another blog today. But his blog is EMPTY. Lol. Just now played audition for awhile. Played with hamsters also. Hamster kept biting me. ): ouch. oh yeah. And i watched balls of fury. 4 more to go. Watched powerpuff girls also. Chatted on phone with audrey, jinlin, joanne also. And i skipped.- trying to grow taller. lols.

i wanna watch chitty chitty bang bang and scrooge. dunno whether parents would take me.

i want a kitty. But my brother wants a dog. He's crazy about dogs. :/ dont like dogs- dogs are scary.

The Enchanted

2007-11-22T19:20:00.000+08:00

I watched "The Enchanted".
it was a great movie.
funny.especially the chipmunk's antics.

strongly recommended!- you all should watch it. :]

GENTING!

2007-11-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

yay finally played the genting outdoor theme park. :)
tried the corkscrew
the swing
and those boat ones
still a lot more i didnt try... ): unfortunately not enough time.

played the arcade
got 1898 tickets
redeemed a giraffe, some cups

ate a lot...yummy things
coffee bean...

2007-10-11T17:44:00.000+08:00

yay! exam finally over :D
maple lvl up 3 lvls :) now lvl 13.
the feeling of freedom is just so nice, not having to study :D
watched disc 5 and 6 of the four famous marshals.
now looking for blogskins :D
cant find the one that i want.

2007-08-17T15:03:00.000+08:00

today...then realised that i studied the wrong chapter for ting xie. ting xie comfirm fail. skipped gb. unhappy about something. amaths surprise test- sure get zero, although he had already gone through it once. my grades are comfirmed to be just passed or fail.

2007-08-16T14:39:00.000+08:00

today hear principal talk talk talk...so bored. at least go for assembly's better. so after school...(no lit yoohoo!!) went to play lan. time's up when i was doing license...waste my money. money disappeared mysteriously a few times.

Bishan-went to a playground...play play play all those old children games again. it was as though we were small children again. "Below 12" the signboard said.

Bubbletea!

Giddy. the merry-go-round went round and round.

shou zu! tomorrow last episode.

studied ting xie...did a little bit of compo...

bao jia wei guo.

Sleeptime! 11.42

2007-08-15T15:09:00.000+08:00

skipped lit. missed the chance to see mdm ho for the last time. lit common test...didnt score very well either. my grades are dropping. i need to buck up...soon.

cant play lan. audition patch.

Junction 8- long john.

Bishan- playground. play! there was this boy, jonathan, who wanted to play with us. "This is life. Live with it!" "You can't catch me. I'm invincible!" are his common phrases. had a fun time.

Bubbletea.

played again at some other playground.

went home all tired and sweaty.

audition channels became 8 free, 2 experts. helped jinlin with some stuff. didnt succeed.

went msn chat a while.

2007-07-29T16:11:00.000+08:00

haha...beautiful teeth =D

hai...mr koh told us that the amaths class test is not counted. :( waste my effort.
cant play my guitar :( cause the guitar strings too painful to press.
today no guitar lesson :( cant wait to play
i want change strings.
i wan u3!

2007-07-22T15:49:00.000+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY!!!=D

morning, went to my grandmother's house. Did nothing but sleep.

rushed back home for guitar lessons. :)

went to swensens, ate fish and chips.

popular, but didnt manage to get harry potter and the deathly hallows.

bought TSGS book 16 :)

it was a good read.

2007-07-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

hmmm...what to post? what did i do today?

today, school as normal. first thing of the day, temperature taking exercise...luckily i brought my thermometer. finally passed my standing broad jump :) nothing else to mention about except that calvin got caned today...guessed it must have felt painful and that the boys starts wooh-ing when mr koh mentioned about the sexuality education tomorrow. argh, health check tomorrow.

after school, went to eat long john at bishan. after that, went audrey's house. played with her baby hamsters for awhile. went down to the playground, played blind mice. jinlin got 2 hamsters. say so cute want to rear. have to give her a cage tomorrow.

2007-07-08T15:14:00.000+08:00

hmm...what should i write? yea, my hamster...i think its ok now...started bleeding on friday. dont know how it happened. its ear just started bleeding. yea so, have to buy a bigger cage. aunty wanted me to give one of my hamsters to audrey but i dont wan to... the hamster's so pitiful...its the one with the twisted leg, my aunty said it was because its leg got stuck on the metal bars of the cage.

2007-06-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

today went to plaza singapura. went to long john silvers for lunch. went to zone x. it was fun! but very tiring. my neck and legs felt painful for awhile. unfortunately, there was no house of the dead. played shooting games- time crisis, point blank, racing cars, basketball. after drinking slurpee and eating a curry puff, i felt nausea. luckily the feeling was gone just as i reached home.

2007-06-01T16:20:00.000+08:00

my brother gave me a scare this morning. he said one of the hamsters were pregnant! Then he called Audrey, Audrey the bear! nothing much happened today...except that today is a boring day. played audition. then went to a super boring place, my grandmother's house with nothing to do. ran, drank coke.

ok here are the pictures.

this is Jerky.

Tidbit!

2007-05-30T13:41:00.000+08:00

Today, had a hard time getting out of the house. Firstly, went to Causeway point to ask about learning guitar. too impatient. had a hard time finding the center. the place was too big.

Then when i finally found it, i was too afraid to go in. but after a while, i finally got in, took a few leaflets, then browsed around the place.

i finally mustered up my courage to ask a few questions. Then kept back up to ask. The people up there must have thought that im crazy.

Then after that went to Audrey's house again because she said she wanted to bring me to a place to buy hamster bathing sand.

Then tonight, my aunty and brother being ridiculous. played with hamsters. Jerky peed on my hand the 2nd time. too scared? played audition for awhile.

Probably cannot post again, because of internet connection. ):

2007-05-29T13:28:00.000+08:00

JERKY!

today, went to Chong Pang to buy another hamster again.

scared Tidbit might be lonely.

went to Audrey's house cause she says wants to take a look at the hamster.

This time i named the hamster Jerky, cause it kept jerking.

Tidbit is not as active as Jerky.

Played with Jerky, it keeps on running about.

We played those games, snap, uno, chinese chess, snakes and ladders, checkers, ludo.

At Yishun Park, we went cycling. very relaxing cycling down a slope. 1st time i cycled someone? very tiring.

Played the swing.

Then we saw what we thought was some people trying to film a school video.

Then tonight played with hamsters again.

Jerky peed on my hand! it was warm.

The hamsters were lying so close to one another.

my brother said they were kissing!

took some pictures of them but could not upload it. ):

Then you know what my brother said?

Firstly, he said he uses sign language to communicate with tidbit.

Secondly, calling Tidbit "Audrey". called it Audrey the 1st time he saw it.

Thirdly, he says that when he calls it Audrey, it will respond!

ok done for this post, internet connection problem again.

2007-05-28T17:02:00.000+08:00

Today woke up at 7.30, confirm late for oral already-oral was supposed to start at 8, reached there at 8.15 instead. go there still need wait because it was in random order. then i was one of the last few. I think i would have done very badly. The passage was ok, except that picture- i didnt have time to study finish it. when i wanted to talk about the malay lady, she interrupted me and instead asked me about the old lady, when i never even studied that! then i said very little about the picture. Then move on to the conversation, she asked me something i never even thought about. she asked me how important is my family to me. then i said: "very important". Then she asked me what have i done for my family. then i dont know how to answer this because i never even done anything worth mentioning for my family lor, except live on for thier sake. but i didnt said that.

Then after that, went to Audrey's house. we went to Chong Pang, went to buy a hamster named tidbit. Then after that played some games, audition. after that, played basketball. Then a malay girl suddenly came and sat in the middle of the court. her act was stupid la. she was obstructing and endangering herself. we were sure to hit her. the way she sit was weird. then after we hit her, she stared at us, muttering some malay words. there is something wrong with her attitude.

2007-05-25T20:31:00.000+08:00

MIDSUMMER NIGHTS DREAM PLAY

- fun, interesting and funny. i really enjoyed it. There were dancing and singing too. There were disgusting acts too. Then that Puck looks a bit eerie, then he keeps on doing that act lor, kissing acts(Titania kissed an ass), then Hermia, very funny, shakes her breasts. (a serpent is crawling on my busom). Then Helena chases after Demetrius. ( hit me, spawn me, strike me, im your spaniel)

- but it was also uncomfortable sitting there lor. neck pain- our heads have to keep turning cause they walk all around . then also very uncomfortable sitting on the mat, pigu tong, leg pain.

- and then i was feeling very hungry also. cause i dint eat dinner. go there only eat snacks and drink water.

THEN TODAY

-LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!

-actually felt so unhappy. but after that i actually felt sorry and thankful.

- went to Jin Lin's house, played audition and basketball.

- then went back home played audition somemore. I tried chance, it was so difficult. So hard to level :(

- then just now chatted with jasmine for a while. My conversations with my primary school friends are always very short. wanted to tell them more.

- and now i want go watch tv le. so bye!

what is a super super good way to make it up?

2007-05-20T16:28:00.000+08:00

its been 2 days after the camp. THE CAMP- TORTUROUS. bathing time-3 mins. how can bathe properly.i didnt have time to wipe myself properly.

food was not exactly good. give us such a short time limit.

i tried to change group but cant. i think the teachers in my group all came looking for me. I tried to explain but i dont think they believed me. I think the instructor didnt want to let me go.

Ubin exploration was very long, very tiring and i had stomachache and felt giddy at that time. Josephine and Pheonix were so nice to me lor.

the confidence night walk was nothing much- not scary at all. except that my partner was so afraid she held my hand tightly.

sleeping conditions were not very good either- stuffy and cramped. i choose to sleep outside. much more cooling.

2nd day- all the high elements. didnt actually like the instructor- force ppl to do the activities. Even though Sangeeta has stomachache, she still force her to do. but then Sangeeta said she was grateful to her- if not she would not have overcomed her fear of heights. The planks one was really scary when ur at the platform ready to cross over- when u look down at the planks, it was really scary- have a falling down feeling. but in the end i still managed to cross over because of thoughts of anling :). didnt get to do abseiling and rock climbing because of the thunder. anyway, it was a good thing for me cause i really wasnt interested in doing them.

Campfire night- was romantic! haha jk. i like the night cause i have that kind of relaxing feeling. all those cheers- funny. but i dont like them to order us about, treat us like little kids.

im glad its all over. hope the NTU camp would be better

2007-05-11T18:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday- BORED played audition in the morning until 2+ my brother came back then fight with me for laptop so can't play laptop then played snakes also very boring because keep on banging into things

today- after eating breakfast, went Audrey's house. Then go sembawang beach. we picked dead crabs, build a sandcastle, played the swing. after that go play arcade- the basketball game very fun but very aching, watch the movie "200 pound beauty". It was very funny about a fat woman she went to have a plastic surgery. the rest i don't say- leave you to find out for yourselves.

2007-05-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

hey blog today have amaths exam. the questions were very difficult lor. i skip skip skip alot of questions then got no time to go back and do those questions that i skipped. the whole of question 10 i think at most only can get 2 marks. I think ill get a just passing mark or maybe even fail. and i get the feeling that Gail's looking at me during the exam i feel uncomfortable. and then today go sembawang beach study...got alot of mosquito bites then i feel scared when Audrey pushed me on the swing im scared of heights!

2007-04-30T18:28:00.001+08:00

hey blog nvm abt the gb thing...i dun mind it anymore...anymind if they left out my name im not going to ask them abt it too. Sad that i missed 2 extra lessons-chem and Amaths. I wouldnt have miss out anything like this. just that i went grp studying. If not ill have to wait a long time. Anyway half of the class and 9 others didnt went for the lessons too. so if i missed out anything important the rest of the class will miss it too. Today physics was easy except for that experiment question.dunno go where study. Jin Lin went to pcbunk. So left me and Audrey. went to the Games room which is below my house next to the swimming pool. Its called Games room but why arent there any chairs inside? there was 3 tables, many many chairs and then a fridge( which doesnt have anything inside except some ice) so we studied there until 5.45 then Audrey has to leave. now still thinking of which conducive place to study. I was thinking of a quiet place which is windy and has tables and chairs and which have a toilet nearby.

2007-04-29T15:58:00.000+08:00

found out that my Emaths overall marks is 82 although still top of the class but i feel thats its still not good enough some ppl can get 95 im so envious. everytime i see maths exam paper i feel that its so difficult. difference between Emaths and Amaths marks= 32. my Amaths got 50 :( almost failed i feel that Amaths is so difficult dunno why maybe coz got lots of algebra then my poa get 91 just 3 more marks can get top already hai our marks all so close one 2nd is 92 i feel that im half language half maths half science half humanities person thats why i got 4 A1s didnt get any A2 though L1R5 got 13 All so half the problem is im too average i cant be all high nor all low

Just saw the Gb blog...Im so angry...they dun even treat me as a part of GB...like they purposely left out my name la! everybodies name inside except me lor...FURIOUS. they dun even bother about me at all fine im not going to bother about them too. i tell u if not for the fact that ill lose all my cca points ill have quitted long ago. I wanted to quit long ago...but just didnt have the courage to do so..if not ill have spared myself more trouble...gb is more like a burden to me...i dun look forward to all those gb meetings....but i just have to keep up with it just for the sake of those cca points

2007-04-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

Today morning woke up stomachache and leg pain...maybe coz of doing too much sit ups the day b4 i did 34 until now my stomachs aching luckily recovered from leg pain :) Mr Tan gave us study tips:
1) cram he says it works
2) sleep is overrated
3)be at peace with urself
although i dun believe this works. even when im laughing my stomachs still pain. Just got news today that i have a drill theory test on fri :( they nvr even give me the paper lor have to photocopy from Si Jia. didnt even understand what the command means lor so long nvr practice drill le suddenly drill test sure fail de la. Also dunno is test stg 2 or 3.Pure Lit class test 14/25 c5 :( alot of them got b3/4 i think its becoz i left out that part of the fairies i didnt write anything about the fairies at all! hai...waste marks:( Now just studying chinese lor so hard to rmb! last word i studied lian yi now have to go study again bye for now

Now i know this chinese test dun have tian xie han zi and zao ju I just learnt 2 chapters lor! I realised that im scared of my class ppl, scared of the surroundings, the atmosphere, the people, the face and scared of talking to them! How to talk to them if im so scared of everything?!! Anyway, just now just talked to Audrey 1st time i felt so calm talking on the phone. Although i called my 4th floor fren b4, i was nvr calm talking to her. Oh ya i only feel relaxed when im with certain ppl lor my 4th floor fren, Audrey and Jin Lin(of coz my family are the 1st). I was nvr relaxed when im in my pri sch lor . It's just this irrational fear.undescribable

2007-04-24T20:24:00.000+08:00

hey blog. Today morning 2 teachers came to look for me. First was Ms Wang, she asked me go look for her after mid yr exams about my CIP...argh havent done any CIP for this year yet. Hate it...regular ppl only nid do 6 hours but we gb ppl nid do 15 hours lo see the difference? hai...will we get more CCA points? 2nd is Ms Tan she thought i only got 8 marks for Amaths class test lor even if my Amaths is lousy..its not that bad to fail la So i shouldnt drop Amaths? Last time i think i did a lot of maths lor thats why can get full marks for common test in sec 1 now i think cannot le...haven been revising maths :( Ms Tan wans me to show her the paper so i showed her already but she still wans me go confirm the marks on friday. Then during recess, Ms Wang find me again lo to ask me whether can attend this stupid ceremony (bronze NYAA) in Singapore Polytechnic...8th may...dunno whether i can go not (its my cousins sch) maybe ask him for directions? Then Mr Tan said he nids to find an alternative career...his ambition is to drive a taxi(what a weird thing). Said he wans to sell fishball mee....says he wans to make the biggest ball lo then the class laughed lor(some ppl are pervy). Anyway slept during the last part of his lesson lo then someone has to wake me up to greet him goodbye. Then today have NAPFA test lo what i regretted is that the standing broad jump only got 137 lor so lousy and the shutter run hor...actually wanted to retake but no one from my class wans to retake if i say like so ps like that hor. So didnt say lor i only got 12+ lor got have gotten better lor i run so fast! only that turning point skid lor then lost the time there. After that NAPFA test we went to see Ms Tan ask her solve a question then she said what my skin very good? so funny lor then she asked me what skin moisterizer i used actually nvr used anything. After that went sch library for 5 mins then after went KFC study done a little bit of maths then went home. Oh ya and i scored 10/13 for history test yay! didnt know my history was that good...lucky can pull my ss up lor my ss test- 5/12 lor failed by 1 mark! why he always give so low marks one with Mr Tan as a teacher sure cannot score well one la. Lucky nvr choose geog otherwise will do even worse :)

2007-04-22T17:33:00.000+08:00

hey blog, nothing much happened today except that i get the chance to practice my letter-writing skills :) i tried writing a letter to An Ling (stil haven send yet coz i dunno whats her postal code no) can prepare for mid yr(mid yr has letter writing and its a full paper :( hate it) countdown for mid yr exam: 4 more days!

2007-04-21T10:26:00.000+08:00

hey blog, chatted with An Ling yesterday...felt more relaxed after chatting with her...at least i dun have to talk to her directly. Anyway i wrote down a long list of what i wanted to tell her so if i forget thats no problem. She makes me feel as if im talking to an expert english person she uses proper english and punctuation even on msn! whereas i uses singlish and i dun use punctuation. I wonder if her english is that good. It can't be possible that even when she speaks she oso uses proper english? My english sucks i always get so low marks for english. I think english is very hard to score and i fear for the mid yr which is coming in 5 more days! Anyway now im trying to figure out how to do this A maths mid yr paper 2006 that ms tan gave us it seems so difficult! But, believe me when she goes through it, it will seem so easy! Just finished solving 1 part of a question Q6c. Im not good in my A maths at all....e maths at least i can cope with it. And today chatted with An Ling again...always short conversations dunno why she suddenly went offline. Still have lots of things to tell her. She said lol! when i told her i have written a long list of what i wanted to tell her

2007-04-20T19:52:00.000+08:00

Hey blog just now just watched night at the museum so funny! everything comes alive at night theres a tyrannosaurus rex roman gladiators and cowboys wage epic battles. Just now feel so tired...feel like sleeping now i like the song night at the museum ending song. I went to record it down. Today went to Audrey's house ate the noodles and watch what fat woman show oso very funny one then after that went home at 4 plus coz Audrey nids to go to the speech day. ok shortest post ive written so far!

2007-04-19T19:52:00.000+08:00

Blog....i felt so tired today....Cant believe i really met An Ling. Her appearance doesnt really changed at all. Can't believe i really went to chai chee lo. Its so far away! Anyway Audrey, Jin Lin and i went to my pri sch first...but then was told by the security guard that we couldn't go inside lo :( only can go during Chinese New Year or teachers' day. Felt more troubled after meeting An Ling (dunno what to say to her) I really forget what i wanted to say when i met her lo. Thats part of being human lo...u only dare say it u dun dare do it. Actually got a lot to say to her. hai...just left her a letter lo( she remembered me) Really dunno how i feel oso...

Feel really happy now she added me! ok now i can talk to her more easily. Reached home at 7.33-so late! Mr Tan and Ms Tan told us stories today. Mr Tan said that the fingertip of his finger is cut by heavy machinery, said it was really painful...they took off his stitchies without anaesthetic So gross...he said that he pulled out his finger from under the machinery and in the end teared off his fingertip he said that he was bleeding badly. Ms Tan said that she dislikes "dirty old men". She said she likes old men but just dun like those who are "dirty-minded". Said she saw some 4T1 malay boys sitting down there watching some gymnast girls jumping on the trampoline. Said that she gave them the disgusted look.Then Ms Woo told her her eyes appeared very big(so funny). Then she said her went home her anger haven't subsided and she looked at the mirror said her eyes really appeared very big lo. Then she said if shes angry her eyes appear very big and she forgets that shes a female(haha). Ya and someone slammed our classroom door this morning lo...then she was so angry lo but she couldnt find the culprit. Last time she said she would go down and chased that guy lo..said she thinks her class enjoyed it coz they have free period. haha :)

2007-04-18T17:01:00.000+08:00

blog...today i felt so angry...EXTREMLY ANGRY. En Nian told me to stay back for this stupid speech day rehearsal. But u no what? THEY WASTED MY TIME. I went there....feeling so stupid and unnecessary. I falled in but soon after that Poh Ee told me that i was not not needed coz the contingent was full already. SHE EVEN TOLD ME TO WAIT and say that if they nid me they would call me. So i so stupidly walk walk walk around there and waited for them to finish coz i want things to be crystal clear i wanted a straight answer so after they finished doing all those marching and stuff i went to ask them AM I NEEDED OR NOT? if im not needed i can leave i dun want to waste my time waiting. i wanted a straight answer yes or no its that simple. So i went asked En Nian and she said she thought Poh Ee told me already. Do u know how stupid i felt? So she said 15 ppl is already enough and im not needed. So i felt so angry i wanted to punch them. So stupid wasted my time for nothing Do they think they can waste my time for nth?!! 1 hr!!!!!!!! I can do alot of things in 1 hr ok? I could have walked home with Audrey. I could have done finished my chem i could have studied for ss or even studied for POA. I mean TIME IS SO PRECIOUS!!!! Anyway this is the last straw im not going to bother abt any more speech day or anything. THEY ALWAYS DO THAT!! telling me things at the last moment WASTING MY TIME!!!! argh! felt so furious

2007-04-16T16:22:00.000+08:00

Today morning i kept thinking abt something...death. Then i thought abt the period of time when i was feeling very miserable...even wanted to commit suicide. But i didn't of coz if i did i won't be here writing abt this now...or maybe if i dun die i would at least be injured or something. Let me tell u what happened from head to tail. I think during Pri 5 or 6 that period of time, i was feeling very exasperated for always failing my maths like crazy(it seems very funny there seems to be like a cycle from Pri 1-3 i like maths then from Pri 3-6 i hated maths then sec 1-2 liked maths again then sec 3 i begin to dislike maths again). Then oso becoz i knew my Pri sch frenz would definitely not go to the same Pri Sch as me...so thats why and i oso hated myself oso and hated my parents. Coz i blamed myself for losing their contacts i think i got their nos in my sch diary but i chucked it away :( And i blamed my parents why must they let me go to a Pri Sch that is so far away and then wanted me to go to a Sec Sch they is nearer to my house. And just kept asking myself why why why and asked my parents oso..they say it was for my convenience but why did they let me go to a Pri Sch thats so far away in the 1st place! So i thought that nobody understood me( i didn't tell my parents nor anybody my troubles). So just started to torture myself(nobody knew that until now) by hitting my hand very hard against the wall til it was red. I think i became immune to that kind of pain after i did it for a long time. I oso wanted to commit suicide actually but didn't get to do it(luckily). 1st attempt: to jump off a building FAILED becoz i thought abt my family(especially my parent's i think they would go crazy maybe even have depression or something) 2nd attempt is to stabbed myself with a knife til i die but FAILED too coz i told myself musn't be so selfish even if i die still have to make my family grieve over me and oso becoz if i didnt die i'll maybe get injured or something and make myself and others more miserable. And so i didn't luckily for that(imagine what will happen if i really stabbed myself? i would probably be lying unconscious around me would be a pool of blood that scene is really gross). And if i dun die, my parent's would still be worried they would like keep asking why i want to commit suicide all those things then i would have to tell them everything. So luckily i don't have those suicidal thoughts anymore. And so qiao(coincidence) that today my zuo wen(composition) question is ni kuai le mah? (are u happy?) Then i wrote all those things lo. When i was telling Audrey and Jin Lin all those things we were laughing like crazy. So funny..all those things i did in the past

2007-04-15T12:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday nite i kept tossing and turning around in my bed thinking abt some things. Then i suddenly remembered what happened in Sec 1 and 2. In sec 1, Audrey, Nanthiniy and me were like together. Audrey and I would go too the Northpoint.I remember we actually disliked Jin Lin at that time. I think it was becoz Jin Lin was following us around at that time, we thought that she was irritating. They even wanted to tell Jin Lin to stop following us and to go with Adeline, Eileen and Tracey. Then i remembered i really told Jin Lin that. And Jin Lin was like asking why, she even said that she would improve ,all those things. Hahaa it felt funny thinking abt it now. I was laughing as i was writing this. Audrey even asked me if i really told her all those things and i said yes....i oso remebered something else...when Audrey was doing her art, she accidentally painted my sch uniform( i still have the blue mark on my uniform)I remembered Audrey asked me to call Nanthiniy and i didn't dare call her?Then dunno how i happened to be with Jin Lin and i wrote some bad things abt Audrey and Nanthiniy.For Nanthiniy, i dun remember what i wrote abt her. But for Audrey, i remembered some bad things i wrote abt her( sry Audrey). I wrote that i she was sarcastic(omg...I'm so bad) becoz maybe she gave me the impression that she was sarcastic? haha( now i think abt it...it's so funny and so silly) coz she was quite cold to me over the phone which led me to think that she was sarcastic? That was the 1st thing. The second thing i wrote abt her is that she always borrowed my money and nvr pay back?(coz i think i was angry with her for borrowing my money and not paying back?)(sry...Audrey) coz i think Jin Lin and I disliked them?(oh sry..Audrey and Nanthiniy i felt very sry abt it.see? i kept writing sry) so dunno why we decided to write all those silly things abt them. Then, Jin Lin suggested showing the paper to Audrey and Nanthiniy (im so sry). Then i think Audrey wanted to return the money back to me(sry) but i refused coz i couldn't really remember how much she owed me? So, at that time, i think i was like avoiding Audrey and Nanthiniy? coz i oso thought that Audrey hated me for writing all those things abt her? I oso remembered at the end of sec 1, Jin Lin and I played badminton together together with our other classmates and i remembered Wan Wan (Mdm Wan) gave us a project.

Sec 2, i remembered that was the time Audrey and Jin Lin got together. I dunno how they got together as i was like trying to avoid them i think. Then i oso remembered Audrey and Jin Lin disliked Nanthiniy for something? or are they angry with her? I dunno why. I think at that time i stopped being around with Audrey? But at the end of the year, i think things started to improve. But i still didn't go recess with them. I think at Sec 3 then i started going recess with them? So now im like closer to them? I oso remembered watching a movie with them i dunno which year that was. So now things were pretty alright btw us.

This was taken when i was playing maple. I think i played only for a while, i think while waiting for Audrey to come online coz i was feeling really bored. (coz Audrey's my longest chatting partner, i nvr chat so long to a person b4) And in case ur wondering why this is a male character, it's becoz i once have a female char but i think female characters are uglier so thats why i created another male character.

Now i get a clearer picture. I know how Audrey and Jin Lin got together already( coz Audrey started talking to Jin Lin then later felt that she was ok) and i know why Audrey and Jin Lin disliked Nanthiniy at that time( coz Nanthiniy was like showing a bad mood face?) haha...so funny i kept laughing while i was writing this post.

This is a picture of my character when im playing audition while waiting for Audrey to do finish her father's hw. I think i waited for like 3 hrs? half doing my hw half waiting.

Today nite i kept thinking why i can write more then i say, why i chatted so much with Audrey and i always thought that it has something to do with fear. Then suddenly i know already! It's coz im scared of people's faces. It's like so abnormal rite? Anyway, my Pri sch frenz always said that i was qi guai(weird). I know why with Audrey and Jin Lin this is not a problem...coz they talked to me so much that im very familiar with them already...so thats why im not scared of their faces. I thought so much abt it( i thought abt it for like 8 yrs b4 ive come up with an answer). Now i finally understand why when Eileen asked me to talk to her the words just can't come out. Coz im scared of her face! Coz when i saw her face im like too scared of that scary feeling to say anything. Dunno why oso always at nite i keep thinking abt things...things in the past. Maybe i really like thinking abt the past ba.

2007-04-14T10:45:00.000+08:00

Today is a bright sunny morning. I woke up disturbed by the construction workers who was creating a racket outside the window. Im not tired anymore. Sleep really does wonders. Anyway i dun have much to write since its only morning 10.50 now. So, when i have anything interesting to write i will add somemore. k thats all Here are some pictures that Audrey sent me
This is taken when we're doing that Japanese Occupation project. I remembered i saved it on my com. But dunno why it was lost. Remember that skit was so funny I kept laughing and laughing. By the way, Jin Lin and I was POWs then Audrey and Sangeeta were the Japanese Officers. Nanthiniy was the make-up artist and director i think. We had so much fun! The video was shown to the class(last year 2E1)

This was what Sangeeta asked me to do i think.(pretending to meditate)

This was taken during the Bishan Park run. I think Audrey's blog oso have this too.

Done! No more pics...maybe later i'll go swimming and maybe take some pics and post. Till then...

Ive done my hw for so long already. When i thought that i had finished, i suddenly realised that i have 2 more questions to do! So i still have these 2 more questions and A maths hw left to do.

While chatting with Audrey on Msn i suddenly remembered a very funny incident. My Pri 6 teacher, she very strict and very particular abt personal hygiene. She once made my fren cry coz she expects very assignment to be handed up the day after. So she scolded her(An Ling), and she cried. And she gives us remedial every tues and she gives us lots of test papers every day to prepare for the PSLE( she's so kiasu rite?) I almost couldn't cope with her work! But luckily, at that time there was no distractions like this computer so i can complete her work in time. And abt personal hygiene rite, she says we all stinks, especially after PE lessons. And then she would droan on and on abt using deodorants(those w/out fragrance) and not use perfumes...blah...blah..blah. And she says she gave us a warning. After that she would say out the names of all those ppl who smells. I think she said out a boy's name. Can't really remember la.

And then a really funny incident happened, one day i still remember that day was the Chinese New Year celebration day. we all went to the hall for assembly( the usual procedures). Then rite, An Ling said that the girl sitting in front of her had BO. Then she told us that Mrs Kwek said that if a person has BO u should tell that person. But she daren't say it. So she just exchanged place with Stefanie. Stefanie was sitting beside me so she came to sit by my side. An Ling didn't dare to tell that girl so she go and ask another boy(Wei Le) to go and tell that girl that she has BO, he hesistated for a while b4 whispering into her ear. By this time, everyone was trying to avoid coming near that girl( there was an empty space behind that girl). Then when Wei Le said to the girl that she has BO rite, everyone broke out into squeals of laughter. The whole atmosphere was so funny. I think the girl was feeling slightly embarrased.

Today nite my family and I went to Junction 8 to shop. After that we went to Long John Silvers.
Then we went to the carpark waiting for my father to drive the car and home and fetch us.My mother said that my brother's birthday is coming(its on 25/4). I thought abt what was the best birthday gift. Then i suddenly remembered, dunno whether i was Pri 5 or Pri 6 at that time, on my birthday, such a coincidence thing happened- An Ling asked me when was my birthday and i said that it was today. She was quite surprised, she said:"really ah?" Then she started wishing me a happy birthday. And i was like quite happy. It felt better than receiving a birthday gift or something. So what i want to say is the perfect birthday gift might not be some materialcomforts such as a very pricey thing but something that will really touch the heart for example a greeting which might not cost any cent but i was really happy already i was already contended.

2007-04-13T17:20:00.000+08:00

hello blog today during MT lesson my chinese teacher (Mr Tan) he told us something abt short and long routes. He gave us this worksheet about short and long routes. Some routes are short but they are clearer like when ur 5-7 ur in kindergarden, 7-12 ur in primary sch, 12-16 ur in sec sch. When ur 16, u take the "o" lvls. U have different paths to choose eg. Either go to JC or Poly, or get retained, or get married or go to ITE or some men might go to NS. After this stg, above 16 years, it is have a long way till u die mens' life expectancy is abt 78 while womens' is abt 82. These words that he said reminded me of my primary sch chinese teacher which reminded me of my primary sch and my pri school frens. Let my show u a pic of my pri sch chinese teacher.

Her name is Miss Choo, she's a very good teacher. At first i thought she was strict and didn't like her. But as i got to know her better, she isn't that strict after all. She was a caring teacher. During that time( after Sars period), we all went back to sch. I was running a fever during one of those days during the temperature taking exercise. It was her lesson. My pri sch fren helped me to tell Miss Choo that i had a fever. Then after that the bell rang and we went back to class coz we go to another class for chinese lesson. Then that period was my form teacher's lesson. So i went to tell my form teacher who was Mr Neo, that i had a fever. Then he told me to go to the office to call my father to come and fetch me home. Min Hui who was my pri sch fren accompanied me down to the office. Then i called my father then i went up to my classroom to go take my bag. On the way there, I met Miss Choo. Then she asked me in a caring manner whether i was ok. Then i said i was alright.
Then after that my father came and i went home.

The way she teaches is oso very interesting. At the beggining she said if she asked a person to answer her question and that person cant answer. That person must stand up.Then the second time the person still cant answer then He/She must stand on the chair. Then the 3rd time the person must stand on the table. Im lucky i didn't get to stand up on the chair.(: She divides us into 4/5 groups by the columns and would give the group that answers correctly points, ting xie(spelling) oso. And she would give a reward for the group that scores the most points. She did this to encourage us.

She would tell us jokes and proverbs that i would always remember. Like "yi fen gen yun yi fen shou huo" ( U will get rewarded for evry effort that u put in), "yi zuo bi yi shan gao" (One mountain would be higher than the other) and "If u relax now, u will have to work hard in the future" and "If u work hard now, u can relax in the future". She would tell us to do zao ju ( creating a sentence with the words given) without looking at the ciyushouzhe( chinese guidebook) to make us improve.

ok thats all i have to say abt my teacher is that she is a very good teacher and that i would like to visit my sch to go and visit her coz i really miss her and my pri sch. But I could not go coz my pri sch is so far away(its in Bedok) and becoz i didn't really travel from my house to Bedok b4 by myself. Im not familiar with Bedok roads. And oso becoz of parental objections. I know that if i said i were to go to my pri sch my parents certainly wont allow if i went there by myself. But they oso won't want me to go there even if i ask my parents to bring me there.
I rummaged through my old things and this was what i found

I realised that at Primary 3 my maths results started to drop. Then at Primary 5 i failed maths. Only at Primary 6 then started to improve, just passed my maths 50%. Overall Exam results oso 50%. But luckily PSLE didnt get C , i got A A B B- English A Maths B science B chinese A. So my aggregate score was 213. It's still quite low.

I found this too

The one circled in blue is me. The ones circled in pink is my pri sch frens: (From same order) Jasmine, Min Hui, Jolene and An Ling.
I still have another class photo which is my Pri 5 one but i guess u wouldn't want to see it coz there's not much difference :)

I still have another photo( do u think ive uploaded too much photos?)this time i didn't write down the names coz u might already have known their names.

Two more pics to go( after this 2 im done with this post :))

This card was given to me by Josephine( she's in the same class as me in the past years 2005 & 2006)But she gave me this card in 2005 on my birthday 22 July :) I like the cat...I like all cats and kittens actually.

1 more pic to go

This was given to my by Mrs Kwek. She's my form teacher when i was in Pri 6. Here's what she wrote:" Qi Qi, I know you'll make it! Go for it!" (2004)

Ok now ive writen what i wan to write. So i shall stop after writing so much rite? hahaha Actually i spent about 3 hrs writing this post. So ok, time for me to take a rest. :) Hope this doesn't bore u. I know its too lengthy but i can't help it too much to write haha Just dun fall asleep while reading this :)

Something that oso happened today is that i went for GB. Then u no what? They nvr told me that there was going to be a Drill test today and i didnt bring my uniform and i wasn't in the marching contingent so i didn't noe whether i should take the test or not nobody told me anything abt this. And besides i still haven passed my stg 2 theory test yet. I feel that im such a fool coz they nvr told me any events that was going to happen. And i feel that im just a bystander, i didn't really do anything yesterday- nothing to do, so i just walked around see see and arranged my file.So much time to idle! They kind of like nvr treat me as a part of GB and i feel that im not a part of GB. So thats it i nvr bother abt it as they oso didn't tell me anything.

I know ive written so much but ive got so much things on my mind so ur like my confidante. I think if i were to say it in words it would take a long time lol The more i think abt it i think its so unfair to me. U know rite the Drill com that time i went to Genting thats why i didn't go for the Drill Com and i gave up my chance to become a reserve too. So I didn't have any attendance. So when i returned to sch some day, Regina told me that it was not compulsory to go for the Fancy Drill com so missed my attendance again. I dun mind abt that 1 attendance nvm i dun blame her. Just feel it's unfair that these events have attendance taken and that the calendar was given to me at such a late date. So i didn't know that there was attendance taken! So missed these attendance- 7 altogether! If i missed 2 more times i lose all my attendance for the whole year, or thats what Ms Wang said anyway. So i was thinking that if i hadn't went to Genting. I would have at least become a reverse. Then i would have been in the Marching Contingent then maybe all of these things wouldn't have happened! Then i wouldn't have lost so much attendance. And by the way, if ur in the Marching Contingent u have 1 extra CCA point! But Ms Wang said that if i wanted to join i can join it nxt year. Do u noe that this 1 CCA point matters so much to me...It might give me a chance to enter the institute that i wan. So ya so unfair lo all the sec 3s and 4s are in the marching contingent except me :( dun want to be with the sec 2s and 1s.

2007-04-12T16:03:00.000+08:00

Today Mr Tan told us some horror or weird stories. He say that last time our school in Bishan got a lot of cemeteries. Then he say last time his school is RI and Mdm Ho teach RJC. He said Mdm Ho told him that his school(RI) that side is a crematorium. Then the ashes of the dead bodies kind of fly everywhere. He oso said that RI the swimming pool is haunted. He said that the tiles will move. Jin Lin came to my house today and played audition. Audrey is going to come too. After doing my blog i wan to do hw already.

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jin lin at my house playing audition.(:

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music

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video

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